Please, please, please pray for my mom again. She has taken a major turn for the worse with her fight with luekemia. Right now she is clinging to life and the doctors told us she will be lucky to survive the night. I came home to shower and to try to catch a quick nap before I head back up there. When I left they thought they have stabilized her, but it isn't good at all.

This sucks!! We just got word a week or two ago her luekemia is completely in remission and we celebrated, now we don't know if she will make it through the night. If they can keep her stabil for another day or two, she should pull out of this, but we have to make it that far.

Please, I am begging for prayers right now:(

Jeff

They are on the way... I hope everything works out for you

I will pray for her. I hope for the best for her and your family, I know that it is not easy to deal with this situation.

On its way.........

Prayers are going out right now Jeff.

Rob

I will say one too..but I doubt he is listening to me.. :(

Hope for the best Jeff!

Sorry to hear that, Jeff - prayers on the way ...

You got it!!!

Our thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family... :(

You'er in our thoughts Jeff :(

On the way, all the best Jeff.

Double prayers for you and your family, Jeff

She also has mine.

Sending a good thought your way...

My prayers are with you and your family.

We're with you in prayer. Hang in there buddy.

Prayers for your Mom and family, Jeff. :sad:

Done, for your mom, you and your family.

Your mother and family are on my prayer list.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Pete

Prayers are on the way Jeff. She has been on our prayer list ever since you first posted her situation.

Well just a quick update from the hospital.

She did make it through the night, but needed every bit of help for that to happen. Basically the doctors have stopped just short of an induced coma with her, they don't want her body to do anything on it's own but to try to fight the infection that got her. She is on a respirator and her blood pressure is medically controlled along with everything else.

The doctors think if they can get her stabilized, they can keep her hanging on long enough that all the antibiotics they are dumping into her will start to work, but unfortunately that takes time, and mom doesn't have much of that now.

I just can't believe this, we were all laughing and chatting yesterday, I left the hospital and got home about 3:15 and by 4:30 I got a call that said get here now.

My mom is an extremely strong woman, she has proved that to us more than she ever should have had to over the last couple months, but this one is a real toughy.

Thanks everybody for your prayers again, we really need them now.

Jeff

In our prayers

You & your mom are on the list Jeff, hang in there.

Prayers sent.

Mom and the family have my thoughts and prayers also !
Hang in there Jeff !

Me too!

pdq67

I'm saying one right now for her!

Thanks everybody. It just keeps getting worse. She definitely will not make it throught he day now. Too many things have gone terribly wrong. What happened is she got toxic shock from the second round of chemo.

We already had her annointed with Last Rites.

This sucks............................................. ..

Jeff

Jeff ~ Wow, I'm very sorry to hear the news! Life shouldn't go this way for your family! Let us know if you need anything and know your Mom is in the thoughts and prayers of many! :(

Jeff, so sorry to hear the bad news. When my mother passed away (cancer) my brothers and sisters an I were vacationing in Myrtle Beach. (My mom only found out 2 weeks before we all left, and she insisted we all still go)

She took a turn for the worse from the chemo and passed while we were all away. It bothers us all to this day we weren't with her, but I think she somehow knew.

I'll will double my prayers and be sure to include your mom in them

Our thoughts and prayer are with you.

Sad sad news Jeff.
It was looking so good. Beat the Cancer and get sick from the treatment.
She and your family will be in my prayers..

My prayers are with you and your family.

Well so far she is still with us. One doctor told us she doesn't stand a chance at making through the night, and another seems to think she is tough enough to hang on.

This is tough. She has no blood pressure at all on her own because of the infection. So they are giving mega doses of antibiotics, and medicinally keeping her blood pressure up, but the blood pressure stuff could very likely kill her kidneys and bowels. So basically we have to just pray for immediete signs of improvement with the infection in order to start reducing the blood pressure meds.

I don't know how this is going to play out, every minute is something diffrent and I am not one to ever give up on hope. I told my mom tonight, even though she is completely out of it, that if she can pull through this, I will do cart wheels all the way down the hallway for her.

At least I was able to tell her some things that needed to be said. I didn't get that with my dad................

Jeff

Keep us informed, we'll keep the prayers coming!

I know how tough it is to go through Jeff, I had to watch my mom suffer with cancer and I pray she doesn't have to suffer like that.
We're still praying for her and for the family.

Jeff,

My heart goes out to you and your family. I know what you are going through right now and it just flat out sucks. I watched my father collapse and die right in front of me. My mom and I did everything we could to no avail. The only thing I can say is that had he been able to be saved, he probably would have had no quality of life whatsoever after what he had suffered and I know he would never want to be like that.

All you have to do is ask; you are in my prayers tonight. Also, I have lost several family members in the past few years, so if you feel the need to chat, send me an e-mail at rj.rj2@verizon.net or PM me. I know what you're going through all too well.

I'm sending you a PM with my cell number in case you need to talk to someone.

wow Im sorry to hear about this Jeff Ill be praying for your family

She is in my prayers.

Mike

Well she proved another doctor wrong again and made it though the night. After talking with the nurse, he was actually able to lower some of the doses of medication throughout the night and her blood pressure is staying up where it should be, so he thinks that may be coming around a bit. The bad news was that a lactic acid test did show a considearble amount more lactic acid in her blood which may point to the beginnings of kidney and or bowel damage. They can't say for certain, as it could also be coming from her muscles tensing up. She actually did make urine over night which is a great sign because that means possibly some kidney function came back.

I'll tell you what, I never in my life thought I would ever spend so many hours praying and crying. After hearng that she was in remission, we just naturally thought that she was out of the woods and she would be back to enjoying life by summer.

I need to thank everyone for all your prayers, so far they are working because she is beating the odds, but please don't stop them yet, we have a long ways to go with this.....................

Jeff

Jeff,

GLad to hear last night went better for her and she is doing somewhat better, i will keep you and her in my prayers,

Andy

Jeff ~ Yes, glad to hear last night was better. Those prayers are still coming your way!

Glad to hear about the improvement. Its never easy to read these posts. Your family is in our prayers too.

Thanks for the update and good news.

Please, please, please pray for my mom again. She has taken a major turn for the worse with her fight with luekemia. Right now she is clinging to life and the doctors told us she will be lucky to survive the night. I came home to shower and to try to catch a quick nap before I head back up there. When I left they thought they have stabilized her, but it isn't good at all.

This sucks!! We just got word a week or two ago her luekemia is completely in remission and we celebrated, now we don't know if she will make it through the night. If they can keep her stabil for another day or two, she should pull out of this, but we have to make it that far.

Please, I am begging for prayers right now:(

Jeff

Jeff...have your Mom and family in my prayers. Went through something very similar with my Mom this past summer and now dealing with my dad and his cancer. Hang in there. We are here with you.

You and your family are in my prayers as well .

I'll keep praying Jeff, hang in there.

Jeff,

Continue to be strong for your family. Only god knows what the outcome will be...but whatever it is, remember, it is his will.

I went through this last year with my brother who also had leukemia. Make sure oncology is on board. It is possible and likely that the leukemia is playing a role in your moms metabolic acidosis, thereby increasing her lactate level. Your docs must figure out how much of the acidosis is due to the leukemic cells vs the septic shock. Both have to be treated. Your oncologist must determine if small doses of chemo is indicated and whether or not your mother can tolerate this treatment. Otherwise, the acidosis will need to be managed via optimal ventilator support and bicarb administration...most importantly, prayer.

The acidosis must be managed well and blood Ph kept within the physiologic range so as to maximize the heart and vital organ function. In addition, the effectiveness of the catecholamine pressor medications that are maintaining your moms blood pressure are dependent on your moms Ph.

Make sure they are checking your moms cortisol levels and giving her the appropriate amount of steroids as needed.

You are all in my prayers Jeff

Jeff,

Continue to be strong for your family. Only god knows what the outcome will be...but whatever it is, remember, it is his will.

I went through this last year with my brother who also had leukemia. Make sure oncology is on board. It is possible and likely that the leukemia is playing a role in your moms metabolic acidosis, thereby increasing her lactate level. Your docs must figure out how much of the acidosis is due to the leukemic cells vs the septic shock. Both have to be treated. Your oncologist must determine if small doses of chemo is indicated and whether or not your mother can tolerate this treatment. Otherwise, the acidosis will need to be managed via optimal ventilator support and bicarb administration...most importantly, prayer.

The acidosis must be managed well and blood Ph kept within the physiologic range so as to maximize the heart and vital organ function. In addition, the effectiveness of the catecholamine pressor medications that are maintaining your moms blood pressure are dependent on you moms PH.

Make sure they are checking your moms cortisol levels and giving her the appropriate amount of steroids as needed.

You are all in my prayers Jeff

Boy, you paid attention. They are doing virtually everything you said. The acidosis is a problem and she has a continuos drip of bi-carb.

Thanks

Just another quick update.

Moms general condition is improving, but her overall condition is getting worse. Her kidney function has basically shut down now. Whether permanent damage is done we don't know yet. The problem mom is having is it took so much to stabilize her blood pressure that the rest of her body pretty much shut down. Her legs and arms and such are getting very little if any blood flow because her body is trying to keep the heart going.

I fear this is going to come down to my absolute worst nightmare, which means we are going to have to tell them to stop. My sister and I have already discussed this with the doctors and they will do cat scans before we make any decisions so we will know if permanent damage was done. At this point we can't do what we want, we have to do what my moms wishes are, and that would be to let her go if she is going to have no bowels or dialysis the rest of her life, or anything else like that. We have talked with mom before this and we do know those are her wishes, and we have to honor her, not ourselves.

I seriously do not know how much more of this crap I can take. Between my dads passing, which the estate isn't even settled on that yet, and now this, I need to get away. I told Sarah (my wife), that we are very likely going to disney world again this year if things don't work out. I just need some time to get away with my girls and not think about all of this.

Today is my daughters birthday, tuesday is mine, and if it weren't for my wife I would have forgotten both, which would also piss off my mom if she knew.

Please keep the prayers going, everytime we see a little improvement I say a silent thank you to everyone one of you that is praying for her.

Jeff

Jeff ~ I wish we could give you all a big hug about now, that's what you really need! We should get together this summer (since we're both not going to TN now) and have a couple drinks and think about all the good times. You will get through this, and even though I can't put myself into your shoes and hope I don't have to for many years, know your Mom is fighting and any choices you have to make will be what she wanted. Thankfully you've had the chance to spend some good days with her recently, cherish those.

BTW ~ Steve's birthday is Thursday! Drinks on the house! :)

I'm so sorry to hear this about your mom. I went threw this with my dad last november. Just be with her and talk to her, I believe she can hear you. Make all dissensions about her as a family. God is with you and your family and I will continue to pray for you all.

Jeff, we just got back from a weekend away. So sorry to hear about this. We are all thinking about you tonight.

Well..........

Their is no way she can pull through this. The only thing that keeps her alive is the drug they are pumping into her to keep her blood pressure up, without it she would be gone. Her kidneys have completely stopped now. Because her heart has stopped pumping blood to her extremities she would likely have to be amputated if she pulled through. We can't do this to her. Tomorrow we all get to say our last goodbyes and to her and tell we love her and then she gets to be with my dad again.

Life sure sucks right about now...........................

Jeff

Jeff...count on your friends and family right now. I've been through this with my mom and dad...and also with my daughter. Prayer is a wonderful and calming thing.

Please know that she is with you spiritually...every step that you take during this.

We will keep you in our prayers as well....

Don't be afraid to reach out...

Bruce

sorry to hear, i was keeping up with thread hoping for the best, but sometimes thing happen the way they do.
i don't really pray, but i do wish her, you and your family the best.

Sorry to hear. You and your family are in my prayers

Very sorry Jeff! :(

Jeff, Even though I haven't posted before now, I have been following and praying for you, your family, and your mom.
That's a tough decision but you will do the right thing. Remember, she will be in a much better place. No pain, no suffering.
God bless.
Jim

Once again, you and yours are in my prayers. Be strong, as much as is possible. The offer I made earlier is still open.

Take care.

Very sorry to hear that Jeff. Godspeed to your Mom and your family.

Your family will be in my prayers tonight. I lost my mom last November, and I know how tough it is. My father died in 2000, and he had always said not to keep him around just for us. It is the hardest thing to do, see a loved one move on into the hands of the Savior. Pray and rejoice that her pain will be no more.

With tears in eyes,

Jeff,
I am very sorry to hear about the turn that the situation has taken. I can speak from experience to the exact same thing that your mom and family are going through. I lost both of my parents the same exact way, just 10 months apart in 2005.
I have been praying hard for you, your mom, and your entire family, just as I did for my parents. But the results are the same. I still want to punch the walls and go off the deep end, and I find myself questioning my faith everyday. I guess what they say is true... Praying is something we do on our time, but the answers come on Gods time.
I remember how sad I was ( and always will be ) as I held their hands, kissed them on the cheek, and told them how much I love them one last time before they left me. Looking back on it now still makes me extremely sad and was / will be the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. But I realize now how lucky I am that I was given that chance to be there to say goodbye. You have that chance to Jeff. Although it may not make much sence to you now, it will later in life and you will be thankfull for it.
If you need anything ... Please call my number anytime (24/7/365) that I am going to leave in your PM box.
Whats important now and forever is the dash.......

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God Bless,
Joe

Jeff,
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. We just had the first anniversary of my wife's father passing away from Lukeumia. It sounds like she put up a hell of a fight, but the good Lord has asked her to come home. Losing a parent is very hard. I lost my dad 7 years ago. Stay strong for yourself and your family.
You'll be in our prayers.

Sorry to hear about your mom. God bless you and your family..

Jeff ~ Thinking of you today and in the days ahead! {{{HUGS}}}

Real sorry Jeff :(

Hi Jeff, I'm sorry to check in so late but somehow I missed the post.. I'm SO sorry to hear what your mom and your family is going through, my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours..

About 7 years ago, we were in Disney World with the kids when I got the call that my mom had suffered a cerebral (brain) aneurysm, we cut our trip short and flew home to find her just clinging to life.. After weeks of rising and falling hopes, we (my brother and I) had to make the decision to stop the life support that was keeping her alive..

I can tell you, that to this day in my life, that was the hardest thing that I have ever had to do, but we took some comfort in the fact that she had told us LOTS of times, that she did not want to live in that state, and if she were ever going down that road, that we should put her wishes before our desire to keep her on this earth with us..

I am praying that your mom pulls through, but if you do end up having to make that most difficult decision, take comfort in the fact that these were her wishes....

Scott

Jeff, we are saddened to hear about your mom. we lost a dad at Christmas time - so we know what you are going through. You are in our prayers also.

Mike

So very sorry Jeff. Just like Scott, my brother and I had to make the same decision with our mom. She'd made her wishes clear and tho it only helped a little, it did help. Very few mom's aren't made proud by their sons in some way, but in being strong for your family today, and cherishing the memories of her love tomorrow, she'll look down and be especially proud of you for all eternity. Godspeed to all your family...

:(

Sorry to hear / read all this..the last I read was that she was going to be ok. My thoughts to your mom and family.

So very sorry to hear about your Mom Jeff...have not been on much and had no idea. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
rachael anne

Thoughts and prayers with you and your family Jeff.

So sorry Jeff.

Our thoughts are with you and your family.

Dot & Al

So sorry to hear this latest update Jeff. Just be comforted in the fact that she will be in a better place and finally be at peace.

As my Great grandmother used to say. May she be in heaven three days before the Devil knows shes gone!!!!!
GOD SPEED!!

Just now gettin in on this...but definately sorry to hear about this I'm young I'll be 24 thursday but I've watched alot of my family go through the battle with cancer and other diseases you, your mother and family are definately in my prayers and I'll have them put on our church prayer list as well.

Just to let everybody know, mom passed away about 1:15 this afternoon.

Fortunately I was able to sit with her and hold her hand right until the very end. I told her all the things I wanted her to know. I never got the chance when my dad passed away as he passed unexpectedly while sleeping.

My sister and I did have to make the decision, and it was the hardest thing I have ever done and I never ever wish to do it again or wish this upon anybody. It was an obvious decision early this morning, but then her oncology doctor came in and told us they discovered exactly what type of infection it is and they can treat it. My hope came back. Then he told us how her liver, kidneys, bowels, and all her extremities are damaged and the likely hood of damge remaining was high, and their was also a chance of brain damage. None of this was certain, but the chances were too high, and by the time we would know for certain mom would be back well on her way to health. She has told my sister and I numerous times she does not want to live a life of constantly going to a hospital. Together we decided that this was her wish. So many times over the last three months she has said maybe she shouldn't have done the chemo as everytime she takes a step forward, something else comes up. Her last words were It is always something else.

I just want to thank everyone for all the support you have given me and my family and especially my mom over the last three months. It has been a long, scarey, sometimes joyous and other times terrible road to go down. I did get to spend a whole lot of time with mom bringing her for check ups and sharing the joy of hearing she is in remission was something I will always cherish.

Thanks again everybody, now it's time to go sit back, cry for a while, and try to reflect on how great a mom she was.

Jeff

Sorry Jeff. i haven't posted till now, but i have been keeping up with the post.
i don't pray anymore i haven't for many years, but i wish you and your family the best.

Sorry to hear the bad news, Jeff. You and your family will be in my prayers. Just remember that she is in a better place, and ask God to give you the strength to get through this. He will provide for you if you let Him. I know He did for me.

Sorry to hear of your loss Jeff. I to have been keeping up with your posts. You and your family did all you could. The days will get easier. You've got a lot of great memories to cherish. Take care, Daren

It's funny, my mom always put everybody else before her, always. Just last week in the hospital, she was getting up out of bed by her herself to use the restroom when she was told absolutely not to, but she did because she didn't want to bother the nurses with her problems because others up there needed them more. It was always that way with her, everybody else before herself.

Tomorrow is my birthday, and I can hear her right now saying "Damn it Jasper (my nickname from my parents), quite the crying about me and go have some fun for your birthday!!!"

Jeff

I do know how you feel and I'm truly sad to hear this Jeff.

now it's time to go sit back, cry for a while, and try to reflect on how great a mom she was.

Jeff

Jeff,
Amen! Remember and focus on the good times! Praying for you in your time of need.
Frank

Here's a little story that might help. I was at my mom's house today, the auction company was having a showing for the upcoming real estate auction. I was talking to the auctioneer, and was reminiscing about the neighborhood, and the kids and people who used to live there. This would've been the 40th anniversary of my parents buying this house. I was telling him about all the people who had lived in which house and what the house looked like inside. Lots of memories from when I was growing up. The auction guy is super nice, and we talked about various things for about an hour. Made me appreciate all that my parents had done for my family over the years.

Jeff, I'm really sorry to hear that she passed, but now she's gone to be with your dad and there's no more pain from that evil disease.. I know it's hard, but things will get better..

Best wishes,
Scott Salerno & Family..

Hello Jeff,

My condolences to you and your family. Sound like you had a tough choice to make, but have no regrets. Hope you are able to enjoy life as much as you can on your birthday tomorrow if that is what Mom would want.
Take care,
You are in my thoughts.
Tom

Jeff,

You did all the right things...I'm absolutely positive that both your mom and dad are very proud of you and your sister. Sometimes the best decisions are the hardest to make.

I know that your mom was a beautiful person in every sense of the word. Her suffering is now over...She is in heaven with your dad...united once again. Know that your mother lives on through you, your sister, her grandchildren. She can be seen in all things that are good and joyous...Make sure that you celebrate your birthday, as she will be there...I promise. Continue to honor your mom by living, exemplifying and promoting her values, morals and ethics.

Your mom is in a better place, she is happy and now it is your and your sisters time to heal...

I applaud the love and dedication that you have shown for your mom. I can only wish that my kids do the same for me when it is my time to pass.

God bless you Buddy

Orlando Cruz & Family

Our thoughts and prayers are with you. May peace be with you.

It is hard but I think you made the right decision.

I am sorry for your loss.

Jeff,

You did all the right things...I'm absolutely positive that both your mom and dad are very proud of you and your sister. Sometimes the best decisions are the hardest to make.

I know that your mom was a beautiful person in every sense of the word. Her suffering is now over...She is in heaven with your dad...united once again. Know that your mother lives on through you, your sister, her grandchildren. She can be seen in all things that are good and joyous...Make sure that you celebrate your birthday, as she will be there...I promise. Continue to honor your mom by living, exemplifying and promoting her values, morals and ethics.

Your mom is in a better place, she is happy and now it is your and your sisters time to heal...

I applaud the love and dedication that you have shown for your mom. I can only wish that my kids do the same for me when it is my time to pass.

God bless you Buddy

Orlando Cruz & Family

My word, I couldn't have said this any better! I thought of you most of the day Jeff not knowing what today would bring, but I'm positive also you did the right thing by honoring your Mom's wishes and desires, she would want nothing less. This has been a very tough journey for your family but always remember life is for LIVING and you have a great life ahead of you with your girls, and it's time to cherish the memories of your parents and make some new ones with your family.

Hang in there, cry all you need to. We'll be here when you're ready!

Meet me at Jefferson in a couple weeks?!

Thoughts and prayers from the Boorman family to yours, Jeff. Very sorry to hear of your loss.

Can't begin to tell you how sorry we are. If theres anything you need, don't hesitate to ask

Kurt

Meet me at Jefferson in a couple weeks?!

Yeah I think I'll be there.

I have definitely learned something from what has happened to our family over the last two years or so, and that is that cars, toys, my woodworking stuff, everything, isn't nearly as valuable and doesn't bring near the joy that family does. It is family first for me from now on. Looking back, for far too long now I have put all those things way too high on the priority list. Not so much anymore.

If I can, I want to use my moms life as an example for my own, others first now.

I am going to be inheriting a rather large amount of money now, and I truely wish I wasn't, because I told my mom repeatedly I want her to spend it-not me. Sarah said why don't I think about picking up another chevelle or a new shop or something like that, but instead I am taking the family (including my in laws) on a vacation. Each of the girls will get either $50,000 or $100,000 from my inheritance, but I have to talk with our financial guy first. I'm paying off our house and all our other debt and stashing the rest away for a rainy day. I don't need more things to take up time that should be spent with them.

Jeff

Yeah I think I'll be there.


I suspect Lee & I will be there as well.

I suspect Lee & I will be there as well.

We'll all meet up. Then I can size up my competetion. I said something to Sarah about possibly not riding the TdC and she said "BS, your mom was looking forward to going to watch you do that ride, you are doing it yet, she is still going to watch, just with a better view now".

So yeah I will still be riding with you guys.

Jeff

We'll all meet up. Then I can size up my competetion. I said something to Sarah about possibly not riding the TdC and she said "BS, your mom was looking forward to going to watch you do that ride, you are doing it yet, she is still going to watch, just with a better view now".

So yeah I will still be riding with you guys.


Whatever you decide is cool with us. We'd love to have you there.

Very sorry about your mother, Jeff.

I am happy for you that you had as long with her as you did. Also very happy your girls had a chance to know their grandma.

Jeff, my deepest condolances. I couldn't say anything better than Orlando did. God Bless.

Sorry to here of the passing of your mother Jeff. You will always have her memory in your heart and that can never be taken away!
Condolences from Jeannie and Myself.

Jeff,
I am so sad to hear about the passing of your mother.:sad:I have been praying with you now I am crying with you. Now you take care of yourself and your family, your mom is at peace and with your dad and God in heaven. I hope you can take comfort in that and enjoy your birthday tomorrow. Stephanie

Really sorry to hear this Jeff.

Rob

So sorry for your loss Jeff.
She is at peace in a much better place now.

Im sorry to hear that jeff

This is so close to what we went through with my mother,I'm so very sorry for your loss.

Jeff, I'm very sorry to hear about your Mom. My sincere condolences.

I'm very sorry about your Mom's passing, Jeff.
Remember the good times ...

Our deepest condolences to you and your family Jeff.

Darn Jeff, haven't been on for a while and last I knew she was doing so much better, I am very sorry to hear this, a sincere Godspeed to you, your family and mom.

Jeff -my condolences. You did what she asked, you are a good man for that. Time to get the photo albums out and laugh at the good times.Mike

So sorry to hear about your mom Jeff. My families prayers are with you and your family.I lost my dad 4 months ago and i know how you feel. God bless all of you. Your moms in heaven now and in a much better place. Bobby.

Condolences to you and your family. She is with our Father in Heaven and your Dad right there by her side, beaming at what a kind-hearted, thoughtful son he raised.

Jeff, I'm very sorry about your Mom's passing.


John

sorry for your loss Jeff

Sorry about your mom Jeff.

Mike

Sorry for loss Jeff.My deepest condolences to you and your family.